The Million Dollar Question

— by Eliza M. Askins

With each stop and each encounter of sharing the work we are preparing to do in Asia, we are asked, "when do you leave, move, go, etc?"

Well, only the Lord knows.

And it is so hard to wait to go. It is hard to come home after days and weeks away to this house. It is hard to travel hours in a van. It is hard to meet new people week after week. It is hard to say goodbye to both the new and old friends we meet along the way. It is hard to be patient.

But, that is the cross we now bear.


We will leave when there are presentations and preaching scheduled. We will leave when someone calls to see the house. We will move from this house only when there is a buyer and a closing. Then, whatever we have will be sold or given away. Or a few things moved and tucked in a storage unit for the small shipping container we might send over the ocean.

We will go to Hong Kong only when the magic monetary number is reached and all the correct paperwork is processed and approved. We will leave, move, and go on the Lord's clock.

And this is not easy because it's a clock I cannot see.

The days pass by and the hours tick away, but I don't have a visual count down clock showing me when it is time to leave, move, or go.

And in that I realize, God has to be in control. Only He can raise this amount of money. Only He can sell this house in which a traveling family of seven still lives with all their possessions and limited time and energies for home improvements beyond the day to day routines and up-keep. Only He can cross all the T's and dot all the i's according to His time.

So, the answer to the million dollar question, only the Lord knows when. So, I'm leaving, moving, and letting go because I am not in control. But, finally in this I'm acknowledging who is in control and trusting the Lord. 

1. I am trusting Thee, Lord Jesus, Trusting only Thee; 
Trusting Thee for full salvation, Great and free. 

2. I am Trusting Thee for pardon; At Thy feet I bow,
For Thy grace and tender mercy Trusting now. 

4. I am trusting Thee to guide me; Thou alone shalt lead, 
Ev'ry day and hour supplying All my need. 

LSB 729:1–2, 4